LB : Ohh, absolutely. Helen, I believe you previously worked in the social care sector. Could you tell us a little bit more about your transition to become a painter? Was it a gradual shift or was it like a real leap into the unknown?
HL : It’s a long story. OK, so before I had children, my work background, if you like… I used to dabble in art a bit here and there, you know, and I was always quite drawn to the abstract anyway.
So, before I had children, I was working at Berkeley Square and I was in administration and training people for jobs and offering training courses for companies, pension companies or you know, motor insurance, things like that and teaching communication and customer service skills. I worked for British Airways as a customer service trainer for a few years. But then I met my husband in Clifton, which is where Berkeley Square is – in Clifton. Our first house is in Clifton.
LB : So it’s a real connection.
HL : A real connection with Clifton. And my wedding bouquet, I chose things like peonies because we got married in June. Peonies and roses.
LB : Beautiful!
HL : And I asked my wedding florist to put in Myrtle, Myrtle leaves, for fertility. And I used to joke with people that she put too much in because I had twins!
LB : (Laughing) Ohhh wow!
HL : And yeah, I don’t know where I’m going with that..
LB : But thanks for sharing this!
KL : When I had twins, I didn’t want to go back to work. And I haven’t worked since. We home educate them as well so I haven’t really had a lot of ‘me’ time, with twins and home educating and as you know, you almost take a back seat because you literally have no time for yourself.
I wasn’t very well a few years ago. So this is before COVID, just before COVID, I had cancer.
LB : Oh my gosh.
HL : And when you have that, it’s a pretty big wake up call.
LB : Yeah. . . .
HL : What am I going to do? I’ve got a second chance here.
I’m ok, by the way. I’m fine. I just see people’s faces and I’m like no, no, no, I’m sorry, I’m ok now.
But yes, I spent a lot of my recovery time not moving and not talking because I was just so unwell. So a lot of time I spent thinking and dreaming and visualising and listening to sort of wordless music that had a high frequency to it, really nice uplifting music and just visualizing and imagining, you know, and what if I went on an art workshop, just for me, for a day. Well, what if? And I just thought it was a real sort of turning point for me and big sort of major life event. I spend a lot of time, it’s very common with people, I spend a lot of time worrying about worst case scenario.
LB : Yes, yeah.
HL : And catastrophizing. You know, I spent a lot of energy thinking: ‘Ohh, what if?’ Well, what if it goes really well, you know, and I had to balance that. I had to go: ‘Right, Ok, I can spend a little bit of time thinking about worst case scenario because it’s obviously useful to know what could go wrong’ or, you know, be prepared. But also you need to spend an equal amount of time, if not more, thinking: ‘What if it goes really well?’ Giving yourself permission to dream, dream big: ‘What if I’m really good, what if I really love doing this?’
So I went through a lot of positive change even from a totally horrendous, catastrophic event that impacted me and the people that I love. From that, a lot has come out of it that’s been really beneficial.
And I’m creating work that people are finding and enjoying too. I feel it’s really like a two-way thing. I’m really enjoying making my art and then other people, they’re enjoying seeing the art, experiencing the art, so I really feel like I’m sort of – contributing’s not the right word – but sort of putting good out there. I’m bringing something creative out of nothing. I’m creating something and I find that sort of experience really wonderful.